Love is in the air

Surprisingly knew that a friend of mine is following my blog.. Luckily he is not kind of 38 person. Thanks god! If you read this again, yea, I am talking about you :)

Feeling great to start a change in life. At least not doing nothing anymore. Busy with my works recently which made me feel release. Release of what? Release from thinking. My brain non-stop thinking, this is my weakest point. Thinking of people, things, this & that. Really tiring...

Diana is never spend her off office hours in Work.. Off means off. But then now I have different thought. If you want yourself not to think on something/someone, it is better to make yourself BUSY, really busy. It's work on me!

I am not trying to escape of course. Really have too much thing to handle which let me have such a chance to figure out actually my life can be better. Sometime people always think that they are unseen, but actually they aren't. Your effort can be seen someday, not now but may be later?!

There is too much things happened/happening on me lately which made me cherish myself & my life more. I learnt that actually I can been through everything myself. I am independent enough to accept and make decisions.  I am going to turn 26 in this end of month, may be of increasing on age so seems like getting more emotional. But it's ok, I have friends or may be "friends" :)

xoxo Diana

What is so special about you?

Who are you? What is so special about you? How to quit this game? I don't want to play with it anymore... I am lost! You are unknown!

Another heart beats attacked

15.05.2013

A had a friend, a friend that didn't contact for 6 years although he "parked" on my Facebook for years. We don't chat at all and we don't even have much memory on our friendship.

One day, he texted me which really surprised me. And thing goes good and smooth between us. During our conversation, he started to approach me by saying words like"chasing". I thought he was joking or even until now I am not sure whether he is telling the truth or not. But I should admitted that my heart is shaking because of his sweet reaction toward me. 

I started to love his voices, feel excited to his reply and started to wait for his call. I feel bad if I didn't receive any news of him, lost appetite, worrying and so on. I am in fever now and I keep telling myself that," hey, stop dreaming. He is just fooling you and how could a person suddenly approaching you. And if really that he did, also will not cross the topic so fast by saying marriage and etc." I am touched when he lower down his voice by saying those words. Although I am in doubt but somehow I wish it's true.

I started to give myself many excuses and I did something wrong by trying to give him hopes of future growth on relationship. 

i am wrong, i am wrong. Girl, this is your future and once you make any mistake and there might be no "undo". Now, I am questioning myself again. Will I manage to end and start again? How am I going to end and start? I afraid to regret and I don't wish to let either.

承诺

可能是年纪渐长，对爱情的了解更是灰。
当初，也差一点被甜言蜜语给骗了。
婚姻可以是美满的，但现今的社会，很难再找到这样的纯纯的恋情。
金钱是每个人的寄托，是多是少，还是要它来过活。
没有了它，就等于没有了世界。
不要和我说，有了爱情就不要面包。这件事只会发生在当下，以后会为了这件事而闹到天翻地覆。“我怎么当初这么笨，会相信你的话。”
要了解，爱情是两个人的事。不是因为单方面的影响，可以改变的结局。
也不要为了利益，家庭的影响而踏上了婚姻。
越来越现实的社会，不会因为你的用心而改变。
一不小心，可能就成了别人的晚餐。
承诺更是女性的致命杀手。
很多女生，因为当初的那份纯情而被承诺骗了：
相信我，我会照顾你一生一世。
不管我们是贫是富，我们都相依到老。
为了你，我会不顾一切的让你幸福，等等的承诺。