Something stupid i ever did...

I found this yesterday while checking my mail. This was a FUNNY thing that i wrote to ask for people's appologize after the pagent contest (2007). HaHaHa!! *Stupid
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Me dear, hope you all give me a chance to express my feeling. Maybe i should not say this as topic but really not fair for me. During the contest, i remember u all said i changed a lot. But u all ever care of my feeling? I need to survive from their circle, they put me to stay with them. What i did a part caused of u all, y i willing to sit with them for dinner? Do you think it's still got seat for me? Sometime, sandra asked someone to move but no one willing to do so, or you all wish sandra to scold in front of public? I willing to scarify for you all. I don mind who i sit with, but i do mind how you all think of me. You all said i acted to gain pityness, did i? I do upset for what i spoiled. It's from heart. And now, i don't know whether i am that sensitive or what, you all treat me that strange. Or just after the contest we aren't friend anymore? I never think of it, i do cherish this friendship between us. I don't know whether you believe or not, but it's true. I give my heart to you all sincerely, I willing to do whatever i can, i've no complaints but please do respect me and take me as your friend not from mouth but from heart. I tried to be the diana which supposed in you all mind to be, da contest for me is important, not because of the gain and lose, it's da process. Hope you all can understand me. I never tell you all bad thing to people, i swear! Someone asked why no longer stay together with you all, i only can say you all got our own topic and i don't want to spoil the atmosphere, so i leave. I choose to be alone so that won let u all think i want to be a part of their gang, betray you all. But unfortunately, it's still happened on me. I ever said i wanna gain at least a title but after i realized that's no point. I don't want you all hate me, you know how da feeling of no friends? It's still happening in my life. Please... Help me!! Maybe you all will comment on me after seeing this, but i have no heart to hurt you all. I hope you all can forgive me. I really take you all as my friends. I do cherish!!! Sorry...
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